Wednesday, March 30, 2011

i lost my vlog card

disclaimer

#1 sorry about the but umm yeah's
#2 sorry about the hair bangs flipping
#3 I swear I'm not naked!!
#4 I hope it worked..?


loyally,
katie
{& indy}

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

wouldn't change a thing,

tomorrow, emmy, indy, and i are headed out the door to visit our hubby/daddy. & to be honest, i'm a little nervous. it's the first time i've been back to 'our home' since the postpartum depression started & i had to move back home. blake's come and visited us here numerous weekends, but i've yet to go see him. a part of me is really excited to go back because, well let's face it, three-fourths of my closet is still there... but the other part is scared to go back to the place where i hit rock bottom. i know it's impossible not to have ptsd, but i have to remember how far i've come since then. 

 i have learned a lot about myself, & am more confident as a person & mother because i have seen what i'm capable of. i know i haven't really talked about my ppd a lot, although i really want to since i think there's a big fat stigma sticker slapped onto it, that needs to be ripped off like a bandaid. it's something that no one can really understand unless they've been through it before, but i think all mothers can agree that having a child is a lot more difficult than you imagined, and sometimes you think to yourself: no other mother could possibly be going through what i'm going through. & there are a lot of moms who don't ever really share how they're feeling. fortunately, i have found many fellow mom-bloggers whom have shared quite a bit, which i am grateful for & think more women should do. just sayin'

but the truth of the matter is, this shit is hard. no amount of babysitting, nannying, or schooling can prepare you as a mother. sure, i knew a thing or two about swaddling & diapering, but the hormones? pshhleeaase... you can't prepare or practice for that in lamaze class.

with that being said, i am now well aware of how to deal with it should there ever be a round 2. & i am also able to empathize with other women with ppd. the irony of it all is that i'm actually glad i went through all that i did. it has made me into a better person than i was before getting pregnant. believe it. 

& even though it has taken me forever & a day to write this because i have a low-grade-feverish-baby-because-she-just-got-shots-yesterday-strapped-to-the-front-of me, i wouldn't change a thing.

so tomorrow, we're off to see our #1 man. say a little prayer?

loyally,
katie 

Monday, March 28, 2011

Big Girl

Lookie who went to the doctor today for her 4-month well-baby check-up!

She was such a good girl, considering we had to wait an hour, and she was nakey most of the time. Poor chick.
She smiled at the nurses and the doctor when she came in. 

But then.
Then the shots came.
And tears.
From both of us.

Daddy went with Emmy for her two-month shots since I was sick, so this was the first time I had seen the most pitiful face on the entire planet.

moms.heart.dropped.

But! she mommy survived, and eventually calmed down.

{I'm just glad it's over}

***
Miss Em weighs 13lbs 8oz (50th %ile)
&
is 24.5in long (55th %ile)
***

Oh! & we got the go-head to start solids. eek! I can't believe it! already??? saywhat?!

time for bed... g'night y'all!
loyally,
katie

(Coincidentally, Emmy's new pediatrician did her internship at the same hospital B will be starting at this June!!)


Sunday, March 27, 2011

Twins!

okay, well not really, but they sure are adorable!
if you couldn't tell by the chubs, emmy is on the right ;)
the other little cutie is will, my cousin holly's littlest one, who is a month & two days older than emmy... but emmy sure beats him in the weight department ;)

can i get an awwww...?

loyally,
katie 


don't know why the pic wasn't working earlier
let me know if you still can't see it :) 


Thursday, March 24, 2011

Blessed.

This past weekend is something I'll always remember.
For many reasons...

Emmalyn met her great-grandmother for the first time.
Emmalyn met many aunts, uncles, & cousins.
Emmalyn watched her mommy & daddy reaffirm their love for one another.

It was a weekend filled with
love, laughter, & happily ever afters.
...more to come...
{but click here for a little more in case you just can't wait}

loyally,
katie

Thursday, March 17, 2011

4 Months & Whoopsie Daisies!!

If you stopped by earlier, you may have noticed something out of the ordinary. Perhaps, Emmalyn looked a little different in her pictures? Perhaps, maybe, it was because the pictures were not actually of Emmalyn...?? Perhaps they were of Little Miss Elli over at From Mrs. to Mama...?

Before you think I'm a total crazy person, let me explain...

I copy/pasted Elli's mommy's format of her 4 month post on Elli. I deleted Elli's info/stats/pictures, and replaced them with Emmalyn's, naturally. Well, I got a super nice e-mail from Elli's mama letting me know that Elli's pictures were on my blog. what.the.H?! I previewed and previewed and checked and checked my blog, numerous times... you know, for typos and what-not. Never once did I see pictures of anyone else but Emmalyn. But, sure enough, when I checked my blog from my phone... there was all of my information & pics of my daughter, BUT also pics of Elli.
I immediately apologized to Elli's mommy--I felt terribly awful! 

Let me just say that I am using my parents' stone-age computer. This never would have happened on my Mac, back home. (This is also why my pictures are small and grainy.. blech!) I canNOT wait until we move in (April 1st!) to our new house and I can get back to my Mac.

OK! So I hope that cleared things up. 
Now, for the re-post of Emmy's 4-Month Update:


Emmalyn Grace,
Today you are four months old. & I am having the most fun with you! Your bubbly personality is a constant reminder to me just how wonderful life is. There's no way I can have a bad day with you around. Sometimes, if I'm expressing a frustrating moment to someone, & I see you flash a big gummy-smile at me, I literally forget what I was talking about. I've been told by many people that you're the best baby they've ever seen--and I agree! [no biases here, of course} I love watching you grow everyday, finding new things you can do. I am looking forward to moving in to our new house with Daddy and Indy. There's a nice porch to shade you from the sun, & a big fenced-in yard for you to run and play in {not anytime soon though!} I could go on and on, and I will in your baby books, but thank you, my sweet angel baby, Emmy, for making me a better person.

Forever Your Mommy...


4-Month Baby Stats
***
Sleep
The angels have blessed me in this department, kid. My darling daughter, you go to bed around 10 or 10:30, and don't wake up until 8:30 or 9am. You have been doing this since you were six weeks old! You are still sleeping in my room (or shall I say your grandparents' guest room since we are in between houses and cities). Most nights you wake me up with little mouse-like squeaks and giggles. Yes, you giggle in your sleep. It's hilarious. Oh, and we can totally make noise around the house, while you're asleep, and it does.not.phase.you. I'm talking, vacuuming, phone ringing, dog barking, doorbell ringing kind of noise... yipeee!

Daily Routine
 I've tried writing down your routine, and it's just not practical. I can pretty much predict how the day will go until around noon, but that's about it. Most of the time you wake up around 8:30am, & this is one of my most favorite times of the day with you. When I go in to get you out of bed, you have the biggest smile on your face...always!! I love it! I let you stretch on the bed, & we have a little "chit-chat." Then, when I change your diaper, I sing you our three "Good morning" songs. You just smile and coo along...
After your first bottle, I'll set you in the Bumbo while I either eat if I didn't get a chance earlier, or finish getting ready. You love to watch your mommy beautify herself. Then, within the hour you start rubbing your eyes and I know it's time for your morning nap. Normally, you'll nap for another two hours. After that, it's usually time for another bottle. 

The rest of the day is pretty flexible. If it's a stay-at-home-kinda-day, we'll alternate between tummy time on your activity mat, reading books, sitting outside in the shade, and following mommy around the house in your Bumbo. You love to sit on mommy's lap and "talk." It's like we're having our own secret conversation....
If we venture out, you're always so well-behaved. You're either sleeping soundly or lifting your head to look around. {I'm guessing you're going to save your in-the-middle-of-target-tantrums for a later time?}
Anywhere between 9:30 & 10pm, you get a bath. And baby girl, you L-O-V-E your baths. You're definitely like your mama in this way. You just lay back (in the sink, still--but not for long), while I pour warm water all over you. You don't even mind when I let water drip down your face.


 Food
You are eating 5oz of formula, approximately every three hours, unless of course you are snoozing. I used to stop to burp you a couple of times during the feeding, but you started getting a little attitude if I took the bottle out of your mouth =P
Apparently, we are going to start solid foods this month. {will find out more at your next appointment}


Weight
At birth: 6lbs 14oz
A few days ago: 13lbs 2oz
{but this was done with the 'ole mom-stands-on-the-scale-first-then-subtracts-from-combined-weight-method. totally accurate}
 Length
At birth: 20 inches
Current: No idea. But you have your four-month check-up on the 28th so we'll find out then!
Diaper Size
You are wearing size 1-2 Costco diapers. These seem to be working the best on you. Sorry Pampers, but you did not hold up well in the blow-out test.
Clothes Size
I do not understand baby clothes sizes! No two of the same sizes are actually alike! {what gives?!?} You are mostly wearing 3-6 months, although you can still fit into some 0-3 and just 6 months. Makes no sense to me... This week, mommy's going to go through your newborn clothes and pack them away [insert.tears.here]

Hair Color
At birth: bald
Currently: wellll... in pictures it looks like you're still bald, but up close, it's light brown in the back and blond on the top. But I'm not holding my breath that you'll grow more hair anytime soon ;)

Eye Color
At birth: dark blue
1 month: slate grayish/blue
2 months: dark brownish/green
3 months: brown with hints of green... debatable 
4 months: looking like they're going to be brown like your mama, although there's still a shimmer of green
Mommy's favorite moments
I cannot get enough of your smiles and giggles. You do it all.the.time. I love when I catch you looking at me, staring and studying my face so intently. 
BUT I think my most fav.or.ite. moment is when I lay you down in your bed at night, while you're still awake... I say a little prayer, kiss you goodnight, & you show me the biggest!smile!ever!
{melts mommy's heart every time}
Milestones
When on your stomach, you are holding your head up for much longer periods of times. ...Sometimes you don't even put your head down!
You are TheDroolingQueen, emmycakes. I should invest in bib stock with how many bibs we go through a day! And you are constantly trying to gnaw on things.
You started laughing out loud. Like, full-on belly laughs!! zomg i love it!
You're following objects that are at a farther distance. & whenever I walk across the room, you stop what you're doing to follow me.
You are holding your head up nice and strong when you sit in your Bumbo. 
You started reaching for items and grabbing onto them--although they don't keep your attention for too long. The other night, I had you in your Bumbo next to a shoebox and you leaned over & grabbed that sucker, pulling it over to you. {Perhaps you've inherited your daddy's love for shoes?}  
You've started squealing in delight, especially if you like the song mommy's singing.
You are continuing to roll over from your stomach-to-back, but have been doing this since you were a month old.
We're still working on back-to-stomach... you can almost get flat on your stomach, but you haven't quite figured out how to pull your arm out from under you.
The swaddler has been our best friend since day one {works like a charm every time} but two days ago, I thought we'd see how you did in just a sleeper. My girl, you did great! Still didn't wake up once :)
You make razzberries.
& You try to stand up.
 Your favorite toy
You pretty much know how to entertain yourself. But I must say, you love to read/look at books. One day, I was reading a kid's first-bible-book-of-sorts... you sat on my lap & let me read eighty pages to you!! {yes, that's eight-zero...80!} I kept looking down to see if you were really looking, and sure enough--you were following along!
Firsts
First trip to the zoo with mommy, Auntie Re (your godmother) & cousin Lucas. You basically slept in the stroller the whole time, and never once fussed!
Watched mommy play at her flag football game
You've started rubbing your eyes when you're sleepy 
You found your feet!
MET AUNT DANA from NYC (aka mom's BFF)!!!
let out a REAL.BIG.LAUGH! {courtesy aunt dana}
First picnic by the lake with mommy & daddy
First cold, unfortunately :( But it didn't seem to bother you the least! Just a very snotty nose and baby coughs. Mommy caught it though, and felt miserable all weekend. boo
First St. Patty's Day (today!}
 ***
& in just one.short.day...
you will meet your great-grandma from West Virginia.
As well as aunts, uncles, and lots of cuzzies!

!!! WE CAN'T WAIT !!!
<3

loyally,
katie

P.S.
hey y'all!! please let me know if i fixed it. it seemed to have worked when i viewed it from my phone, but let me know! thanks for understanding :)

Friday, March 11, 2011

BCF: best cuzzies forever

one wonderful thing about staying with my parents during my recovery, is i get to see my nephew more often. lucas is almost 2 1/2 and is seriously such a ham! he always brightens my day.

back in december, lucas met his new cousin for the first time. he wasn't quite sure what to think about her. 
their relationship went from this:
{what the heck are you?}

to this...
 best.cuzzies.forever.

ahhh... they melt my heart.
lucas is holding his play camera because he wanted to take pictures of emmy and him, too. he is seriously so sweet with her. he wants to touch her bald head, & give emmy her blanket. & he always gives her kisses!

<3

Have a happy weekend!!
My man's coming in town today and we're going rental house shopping! wahoo! can't wait!

loyally,
katie

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Straight Up

 Your questions answered!

How’s everything going lately?
Things are going well, considering the circumstances. Postpartum Depression is a real drag, let me tell you. But I have surely come a long way, and things are finally looking up and heading in the right direction. It was a very scary time in my life, but through proper care and professional help, I have moved mountains. One of the best things I can be doing right now is activity. I'm glad my family has been supportive in allowing me to take time every day to care for myself. I've learned not to feel guilty about asking for help, and having "me" time. {No one's going to call me "Katie-me-time-[last name]" ... Modern Family last night, anyone??} I am doing things I have never done before, and it feels awesome! I'm pumping iron with a trainer two days a week... Buddha Bootcamp Yoga once a week {my fav!}... I got back into a dance class once a week...and get this, y'all! I'm on a co-rec flag football team! saywhat?! Yep. Never played before in my life (well since elementary school). But it's so much fun and I even catch the ball and pull flags... {plural..!!} Ha! Plus, I try to run a mile on my "days off." It's been terrifically therapeutic.

And of course, playing with this little love, is always good for the soul.

What is your guilty pleasure?
I’m almost embarrassed to say that it’s the Kardashian’s. I can’t help it! They’ve hooked and reeled me in like a helpless little flounder. They’re addicting! Although… I miss the original “Keeping Up With the Kardashians.” These new spin-offs just aren’t as good. [I miss Bruce ::sigh::]
Anyone else share in my horrid habit?

Do you read any magazines on a monthly basis—if so, which ones?
I read People Magazine. That’s the only subscription I have. I look through all the pictures, then go back and read most of the articles. I really like spotting the 10 differences in the picture, and I must say—I’ve gotten especially fast =) But I definitely flip through all the gossip magz every time I’m at the grocery store or Barnes & Noble. Occasionally, I’ll buy a Cosmo if I really like who’s on the cover.

What are your current favs (and not so fav) baby items?
My FAV.or.ite. baby item thus far is Fisher Price’s Rock ‘n Roll Sleeper. No competition.

This has been a life saver, in my opinion. Miss Em sleeps next to me (at bed level) which I love. But my favorite feature is that it folds up in literally a snap and can easily be taken from room to room, or house to house. We take it everywhere with us. I highly recommend it to any new mom.
{thanks cousin holly for sending it to us!}  

The Bumbo is also a big hit in our home. 

{she's starting to grab for things--it's so cute!}
Emmy loves sitting in it, and just like the sleeper, I take it from room to room so I can get things done without holding her.
I currently don’t have a least favorite baby product, but I will say that I am very much a minimalist. There are so many creative products, and no doubt useful and fun, but seeing that we're in transition of moving, less is more right now. My one advice to new moms though, would be to not buy sooo many clothes. There are some onesies Emmy never even wore because she lived in gowns the first month of her life. It's smart to wash and prepare a few clothes, but I wish I would have left the tags on most of them. 

Is there anything you absolutely could not live without? 
Besides the obvious "family, friends, water, etc..." answer, I could not live without Burt's Bees Lip Balm and Olay Daily Facials Cleansing Cloths. It removes all my makeup and leaves my face feeling smooth. {I follow up with Clinque's Dramatically Different Moisturizing Gel... love that, too!}

Is it hard being away from BJ?
Yes, it is hard being away from my husband, but it's what we have to do at this time. He has to go to school, and I need help while I recover. We are fortunate that we're only two hours away and see one another every 2-3 weeks. We are also very blessed that we have both sets of grandparents to help with Emmalyn. Just knowing that we'll be back together in May, is enough to get me through. Thank goodness for Skype, right?!

So... tell me something boutchaself...  

loyally,
katie 


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