Thursday, May 26, 2011


In case you didn't see my guest post on The Mommies, here's what you missed:

Have you ever tried worrying and being grateful at the same time?

Go ahead. Try. I’ll wait.

Did you do it?

Didn’t think so.

The antidote for worry is gratitude and well-being. It’s impossible to worry about something when you’re busy being grateful. Unfortunately, the same is true the other way around. You can’t be grateful for something if you’re too damn busy worrying about a million other things.

Have you ever been stuck smack in the middle lane of the interstate during 7AM traffic? Do you cope by blowing your horn, or huffing and puffing because you’re going to be late to work, only to get yourself so worked up, you actually break a sweat? And what does all that blood, sweat, and tears (I exaggerate. Kinda.) get you? A headache? Maybe two inches of black top, only to be cut off by a punk on a motorcycle? …aaaannnd, now we’re cursing.

Next time, instead of focusing on the negatives, why don’t you try being grateful? Katie, how can I be grateful for morning traffic?! Well, my friends (& I hope we can be friends!) it’s simple. You have to change your way of thinking and count your blessings: I may be sitting in bumper-to-bumper agony, but at least I have a car. There are people who have never even set foot in a car, let alone have paved roads. I’m grateful for that. I’m grateful I have the money (at least for now) to fill up my tank. I’m grateful this seat belt is keeping me safe. I’m grateful I don’t have to walk to work. I’m grateful for my air conditioning & music to keep me company. And if, and only if, I’m stopped at a traffic light, I’m grateful for Facebook on my iPhone.

Have we forgotten about that punk on the motorcycle yet?

Good! And trust me, it works in all sorts of situations: Baby screaming? I’m grateful she has working lungs. Shins and calves burning after that two-mile run? I’m grateful I have legs to run on. With practice and determination, you’ll soon be riding the “Grateful Train” first-class to “Calmville.” Scout’s Honor.

Now how did I get to be all expert-y, noble & wise about gratitude?

{Hi, my name is Sarcasm. Nice to meet you.}

I am who I am today because of a nasty thing called Postpartum Depression; or “Hell,” for short. The past six months of my daughter’s life have been a whirlwind for me, to say the least. I, probably like most women, skimmed over the PPD sections in the baby books since ‘yanno… never thought it would happen to me. Ain’t that how the story goes?

Anywho… long story short: I found myself hospitalized for a week at a behavioral center. Most terrifying and astounding life-changing experience of my life! I’d like to share with you my personal testimony after spending an additional month in an outpatient recovery program:

Written on February 15, 2011

I have certainly come a long way in this ever so challenging journey. This has been by far the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. My dream has always been to be a mom, so when the foreign and nightmarish thoughts hit me like a brick, it scared the living day lights out of me, to say the least. The anxiety attacks were like nothing I’ve ever experienced or even seen before. I didn’t know who I was anymore.

The best decision I ever made was going to the hospital. Although it was absolutely terrifying at first, it was the right place for me to be. And PHP [the Partial-Hospitalized Program] has continued to help me tremendously. I have learned so much—especially about myself. I never knew I had so much strength and determination.

I learned that in order to gain massive momentum in my recovery, I had to get moving! That became my new mantra. I lacked a lot of motivation when I first stepped foot in here, but I soon realized it didn’t mean I couldn’t still do the things I used to love. I am capable. I am capable of so much. It took a lot of practice, but my mood is finally catching up.

I made a promise to myself to never give up no matter what! I wanted things to change, so with the picture of my husband and daughter in my mind, I knew the only way I was going to make that happen was to JUST DO IT! Even if I didn’t feel like it, I made myself do it because it was the right thing for my recovery. If I didn’t change my thoughts and behavior, then things were going to stay exactly as they were, and I definitely didn’t want that! I took my first step, stayed committed to my recovery, and things started becoming easier day by day.

Seven weeks ago, I was crying and screaming on the bathroom floor, begging to die; and now I’m playing flag football and caring for my daughter like I always knew I could. It’s hard to imagine I once thought about taking my own life, and now I would give it away in a heartbeat if it were to benefit my daughter.

I despised the fact that I got Postpartum Depression. I thought, Why me? Why is God punishing me? But now? Now, I see the beauty of this experience and how it has strengthened me. Every day I’m a little bit more of who I want to be. Every day I become a better person; and for that, I am truly grateful.


You can’t have a testimony without a test, right?

A fellow patient—a mom, who lost her twenty-six year-old [former soldier & current police officer] son, to a heinous murder as he was called to a robbery, told me I inspired her. Well if that doesn’t humble your heart, I don’t know what will! If she had the courage to dust herself off, then I surely didn’t have any excuses. I could hold my baby in my arms—she no longer could.

Life isn’t always easy. But it sure is worth the fight.

So that’s my story, and I’m stickin’ to it! I’m Katie. A devoted wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend, who strives to be the best I can be, every day, for all the right reasons.


Tuesday, May 24, 2011

1st Guest Post!

Mommies, & Musicals, & Blogs, Oh My!

My SIL & I recently attended the performance of The Mommies: A Musical Blog and were blown away with laughter. The show was written and produced by Jeanie Linders, the same woman who wrote and produced Menopause The Musical.

The show touched on everything from postpartum blues, to turning down sex post-baby, to potty training, to snotty teenage years. There was something for every mother, whether new or seasoned. The talented mommy actresses has us laughing, dancing, fist-pumping, and shouting "Mommies Rock!" from start to finish.

I was graciously given the opportunity to share my thoughts and story on the musical's blog.
You can find that post by clicking here.

After you visit their site, please come back and let me know your thoughts.
I'd really appreciate it.

with THE lovely MOMMIES

A big thank you to The Mommies for allowing me to be a part of something so close to my heart.


Monday, May 23, 2011

Baby Baths & Laughs

It all started when I needed an updated picture of Emmy in the bathtub to hang in the bathroom. Now that she can sit up on her own quite well, I jumped at the opportunity to capture the moment. Girlfriend L-O-V-E-S her baths! She could be in there forever if I let her! If you don't believe me, see for yourself...

 oooo I could just eat her up!! 
& don't ya wish you could take baths like this every night??
oh to be 6 months again... ;p

happy monday y'all!
{come back tomorrow for my debut as a guest blogger--eeks!}

Saturday, May 21, 2011

New Button, yo!

hey y'all! i created a button! feel free to accessorize your blog with it

i'd love you forever ;)
{p.s. what do ya think about all the new changes? yay? nay?}
{p.p.s. let me know if the button doesn't work. not quite sure i know what i'm doing! ha!ha!}


How to "Grab Me"
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Saturday Morning Scene: Pedi's & Blue Jays, & Baby, Oh My!

linkin' up with kate for SMS

on this hot, but gorgeous saturday morning, i brought the bambino over to my parents & headed off to the nail salon to get a little pedi.
in the midst of soaking up every minute in the heavenly massage chairs, i fell asleep.
& while i was asleep, i had a dream i was at my home and emmy was crying.
next thing you know, i am jumping out of the seat.

what a sight!

{oh, but it was a good sleep}

& guess what i found in the tree in our new backyard!
a cute widdle family of blue jay babies!
my saturday went by fast.
emmy & i shopped at the mall with my mama.

hey other mommies
have you ever noticed it takes TWICE as long to shop with a baby, not because the baby is acting up, but because e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e & their mother has to stop you to take a peak??
cracks me up. i can't even count how many people today told me i "just made their day."
makes ya feel good ;)
 {this face makes me feel good every day!}

the hubs went to pick up take-out from carrabba's [my fav!]
then it's SNL with my other husband Justin Timberlake & Lady Gaga.


Friday, May 20, 2011

Just Because.

totally didn't realize my new blog layout i created matches our wedding colors.
what a coinkidink! ;)


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

6 Months! & I Spy Something Shiny!

Emmalyn Grace

You are 6 months old!
{May 17, 2011} 

6-Month Baby Stats
What did I do to deserve such a great little sleeper?! You are ready to go to bed anywhere between 7 & 8pm, and don't make a peep until 7 or 8 the next morning. You wake up so happy, too, "talking" and babbling like it's nobody's business. It's my favorite time of the day with you.

Daily Routine
Not much has changed in the routine department. You wake up between 7 & 8, are up for an hour, then go down for a nap that lasts anywhere from 30 minutes to 2 hours. After your first nap, you eat solids, then are up & playing like a fool. In the later afternoon you gobble up some more solids. You start fussing sometimes as early as 6, so it's bathtime {which you love!} followed by a bottle, book, songs, & prayer.

So far, you've had brown rice, sweet potatoes, peas, and pears. Your favorite is pears, followed by peas. Next, I think we're going to try carrots. I am making 90% of your food. However, because of the move, and our freezer going kaputz, you had organic peas in a jar. The pediatrician gave us the go-ahead on puff-snacks and meats... yum!

At birth: 6lbs 14oz
Current: 14lbs 12 oz

At birth: 20 inches
Current: 25.5 inches

Diaper Size

Clothes Size
Anywhere from 3 to 9 months. Ya never know!

Hair Color
At birth: bald
Currently: my MIL thinks dark, hubby thinks blonde... so we're going with golden brown lol

Eye Color
At birth: dark blue
1 month: slate grayish/blue
2 months: dark brownish/green
3 months: brown with hints of green... debatable 
4 months: looking like they're going to be brown like your mama, although there's still a shimmer of green
5 months: Brown!
6 months: still brown, like yours truly

Mommy's favorite moments
Hands down... when you laugh! It is the most magical sound in the world. I'm also loving that your personality is really coming out. Oh! And it doesn't hurt either when strangers in stores compliment how well-behaved you are. At Easter Mass, you were awake and quiet the entire time. I base it on the fact that we've been taking you in public since you were itty bitty, so you just know.

You're sitting up on your own!!

You are also getting on all fours, & rock back and forth. Any day now, you could be crawling. Let's not get carried away yet, though. Mama's not ready for this yet!
Today at the doctor's office, you said, "DADDY" as clear as day. The pediatrician looked at us like, "Did that really just happen??" It was crazy. Now, we all know that she doesn't actually know that her daddy is called "daddy," but we can pretend, right?! Throughout the rest of the well check-up, she kept saying, dadadadada. Love it!

Your favorite toy
Anything and everything you can get your hands on. You reach for everything in your sight. Gone are the days of leaving things around the house. But you sure are a reader. You've been turning cardboard-book pages for over a month now. 

1st Passover with mommy, GG, & Grandpa
1st time you reached for your GG
1st Easter
1st night at the new house
1st time Auntie Shell & Uncle Mike babysat
1st time eating peas & pears
1st Mother's Day
1st time in the pool at GG & Grandpa's house

1st time you put your toes in your mouth
1st bath with cousin Lucas at Mimo & Papo's


drum roll please...

this is a big one....

GG pierced mommy's at 4 months, so when we went to the doctor today, mommy asked the doc if she does it in her office. She said yes, so we did it! You only cried during the piercing, and less than a few minutes after. You were such a champ!
{i know people have their opinions about this, but it was our choice as a family. i'm so glad my mom had mine down as an infant, so i wanted the same for my daughter}

i cannot believe you are six months!! 
emmalyn grace, you bring me so much love and joy

i love you, emmycakes!

forever your mommy!


Monday, May 16, 2011

One of those days...

I have two posts that I've started writing and have been meaning to finish and publish, but it just hasn't been in the cards lately.

And today? Was just one of those days...
I had an "off"/emotional day,
followed by a blowout diaper up the back
(emmy, not me)
wrapped up with a busted kitchen sink leak.
fantastic, right?

So instead of continuing on with some woeismeshit, I'll leave you with this little happy...
does it look like we could pull off having three kids?

we're just good actors...

and can you believe this little chickadee will be SIX MONTHS tomorrow?!?!?!?!!!!
i refuse to say half-a-year
oh crap, i just said it.

well that's it! no more!
I'm soaking up my little bitty one like she's soaking up these florida rays
little missy goes for her well-baby check-up tomorrow afternoon, so be sure to come back to see her 6 month post! :)


Saturday, May 14, 2011

Saturday Morning Scene: New House!

I'm linking up with Katie for Saturday Morning Scene

Here is what we're working on today...
Putting together our new {rental} home!

^^yep, that's totally a wine cooler in the kitchen^^

we did not choose the wallpaper, haha!
french doors in master suite, opening up to back porch. i die.

do you think a certain 5lb pup would like this yard..??
...he agrees.

hope you're having a happy weekend!


Monday, May 9, 2011

Sneaky Peaky ;p

Just a little teaser of the pics from our "Marriage Celebration" in March

Just you wait...
this is only the beginning...


photos by Jovee Photography

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A Mother's Day Prayer... a few days early

"O Lord: On this Mother's Day, when we pay homage to motherhood, I thank Thee, O God, for Thy gift of a blessed mother, for her sweetness, kindness and warmth, her deeply-felt love, and her tender, gentle care. All through the years, as long as I can remember, from infancy to this day, she has been at my side, caring for me, training and teaching me, and guiding and comforting me in every trial and tribulation. I know, O Lord, that this precious gift, mother, comes from Thy storehouse of blessings, and with all my heart and soul, I offer Thee my gratitude."

"Reverently do I pray that I may be worthy of her noblest striving. Deepen my sense of understanding, so that I may be aware of her potent influence in my life. Give her Thy fatherly protection. Keep her from all bodily harm and from distress of mind and spirit. Grant me the privilege that I may cherish and revere her all the days of my life."
"May He who blessed our matriarchs Sarah, Rebecca, Rachel, and Leah, bless my dearly beloved mother. May God Almighty grant her life, and keep her strong and healthy. May He send many blessings of joy to her and cause her to be proud of her achievements. And may He bestow upon her and all other mothers in Israel and mankind, a full and happy life."

To me, my mother is not only a fighter, but an inspiration. Five years ago, she stomped the shit out of stage 3 colon cancer; and now, she's staring breast cancer straight in the eye and taking no prisoners. My mother has showed me throughout the years that no matter what, we just have to keep pushing through. Sometimes life deals you some pretty crappy cards, but you can either feel sorry for yourself, or you can do what ya gotta do, and keep on moving...
Ever since I can remember, my mother has been the most selfless person. She has given so much to me. There will never be the right words to say to describe my adoration and appreciation. As much as I love having her as a mother, I love having her as a grandmother to Emmalyn so much more! There's an infinite amount of love between the two of them. When my mom gets home from work, her eyes light up at the site of Emmy, who in return, gives her the biggest-most-gummiest-yummiest smile and flaps her arms in excitement. Their relationship is truly special.

So, I thank you, God, today and every day, for the most important woman in my life. I am blessed, honored, proud, and humbled to be her daughter.

{I love you, mommy!!}



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