Emmalyn is two years old now.
Imagine everything I would have missed, had my wish actually came true?
I would have missed her learning how to crawl and laugh.
I would have missed her first steps.
I would have missed a bazillion irreplaceable hugs and slobbery kisses.
I would have missed her saying, "I love you, Mommy" for the first time.
My life would not be as rich and fulfilling as it is now if I had *sat out* the last two years. I'm thankful for those around me who pushed me to meet my potential in my role of motherhood.
Getting through depression really puts things in perspective. When I'm exhausted and can't imagine enthusiastically reading We're Going On a Bear Hunt for the umpteenth time, I think about how lucky I am to have a healthy child, and to be healthy myself. Some aren't so fortunate. Some would give up everything they have to read to their child just one more time.
Postpartum depression or not, I still have days where I want to pull my hair out because Emmalyn has just thrown Cheerios all over the department store floor--again. There are days where I want to crawl up into a ball on the couch and wait for tomorrow. But my experiences have taught me how to *get it together* and BE the light at the end of the tunnel.
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